Alone.

This world feels so alone right now….

“Republican vs. Democrat”

“Black vs. White”

“Gay vs. Straight”

“Man vs. Woman”

All these divisions break my heart….it shouldn’t be this way. It was never meant to be this way. If only we knew how to love our enemies as Jesus loves us….maybe we wouldn’t be here right now. I still struggle with my faith, but it never truly left me.

I want to show the world what it was meant to be like, but I fear that I may never able to do that with my mental health issues….hopefully there will be a way out, somehow. It’s so dark right now, with all these thoughts overshadowing my mind. I have to believe they’re not true, but it’s so difficult. Maybe I can’t change the world, but I can raise my child to be a light in it. I have to be strong for my baby. For my husband. For everyone. It’s going to be difficult, but worth it. It has to be. We can’t keep living like this….we need to thrive, not just survive.